He sat in a chair, and pulled her into His lap…facing Him…and slowly caressed her face and her curls…His closeness….His scent….mmmmmm…..she enjoys being in His presence and his ministrations made her purr happily like a cat…
Both of them smiling at each other..touching each other…a soft happy relaxed atmosphere…
All of a sudden, without any warning, he pushed her backwards…without any support, she fell backwards…well..almost…as he held her in the last moment…
She felt terrified…her eyes raced wildly all over his face…her breathing accelerated, her heart drummed inside her…she grasped him tightly….she could not believe that he had pushed her so suddenly that in a moment’s time, she would have been on the floor…
He smiled at her…and caressed her face….until she settled down…slowly she relaxed….her tight terrified grip of her fingers on Him loosened….she slowly relaxed….her breathing returned to normal….
And then He pushed her again…
Suddenly she was plunging down backwards….
She opened her mouth wide in shock….eyes went wide….again…in the last moment he caught her….His hands felt like an iron grip round her waist…
She felt slight shivers coursing through her body….shivers of fear…she has an almost phobia level fear of falling over backwards…..that’s how her Dad died…he fell over backwards, hit his head on the floor….and died on the spot!
Whenever she sees anybody tilting themselves in their chair, she feels tense lest they fall and hit the back of their head…if it is somebody known to her, she would scold them and make them stop that…just looking at somebody where they might fall over backwards and hit their head makes her tense….and now, she is in that position…and terrified….
Her entire body tensed…she looked at Him wildly…He ordered her to look into his eyes….focus on them….and he continued doing that…and each time she was convinced that she is going to hit the floor, he caught her…she was unable to focus on his eyes…her eyes widened and wandered….her mind panicked…
He said, “What are you scared of ?”
She stammered, “I…..I might fall…fall down..”
He looked into her eyes intently and said softly “You think I will let you fall?”
As she continued looking into the depth of His eyes, her body relaxed, as she knew in her heart that he won’t let her fall, and her strong fear is triggered due to something horrible and sad in her past, but this is the present….and He is with her now…and He won’t harm her…he won’t let her fall…and with Him, there is no fear, only trust…with Him, she can let go…
He is taking her to the edge of fear…to the fringe…and bringing her back…
She was silent for a few seconds…
And she told Him, in a strong voice, “No Sir, You won’t”
He smiled, nodded His head as if satisfied with her answer, and continued pushing her almost to the point of falling down…and holding her in the last moment,,,pushing her and holding her….on and on…
She relaxed as she realized that he is taking her to edge…but he is with her….holding her…literally….her job is to just trust Him….and let go of her fear …
Once she realized this, she shook her head wondering why did she even doubt for a second that she would fall…He smiled and pulled her into Him…and softy caressed her curls and back with his fingers…
As she cuddled into his body, she thought, “Yes Sir…take me to the edge, but I know that I won’t fall….because YOU are there”
She smiled and snuggled her face deeper into the crook of his neck…inhaling Him and feeling at peace…
Just another moment between a Master and His slave…
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